Doin' Just Fine (I Guess)

Everybody is worried about how I'm doing these days.  Chelsea, the girl I was (and still am) convinced that I was going to marry, has left me again.  Will I give up?  Maybe I will (eventually).  For now, I hold out that this is just like every other time.  I understand that she gets scared.  I understand that she wants more out of life than I can provide for her now.  The only thing that I can do is march on with my education, safe in the knowledge that I will be able to provide for her some day.

Until then, I'm working on me.  I am charging myself with tasks to improve my life.  First, I have found a sangha in BodhiHeart, where I will be attending on Sunday nights.  I meditate in the morning.  It's tough to get up a little earlier, but I feel great all day long.  I have committed to exercising at least three days a week.  It REALLY energizes me!  Wedsnesday, I'm getting my tires fixed on my bike so I can ride to work.  I am eating less and healthier.  It's really led to fewer stomach pains and other issues.  Also, I make sure my apartment is fully clean before I go to bed.  And finally, saving.  I have commited myself to putting money away.  I have a great new savings plan!  Already, it's building up.

All of these are lessons that I learned from Chelsea.  I was too stubborn to put to practice the things she knew about organizing one's life.  Now that they're being implemented, I realize that I've learned quite a few things about being a grown-up.

I love her, and I always will.